Well. It's been a little over two months since I've written a blog post. Sorry about that. I just have no motivation and I couldn't think of anything to say and blah blah blah.
Anyway. 2012. That was a thing that happened. Nah, I'm just kidding. I feel as though 2012 was a good year for me overall. A year for me to really grow as a human being, and really discover who I am. Philosophical, right? Ahah, I'm hilarious. But in reality, 2012 was a very good year. Although there was a lot of tension and stress, a lot of confusion and heartbreak, and a lot of hard times in general, I made it through strongly. If I were to look at only the majorly bad things that happened in 2012, I could definitely say that it sucked a whole lot. But, I like to look back at all the good things that happened, big and little. I made so many memories that will bring a smile to my face for my entire life. I've met so many great new people, and strengthened a lot of the bonds I had originally made.
2012 rocked. And 2013 will be even better; I shall make it so.
Moving on to more recent events; tonight could've been the last night of my life. I am being completely serious right now, and maybe only slightly over dramatic.
Tonight, I was driving myself home from an event. I was having a grand old time driving North down 287, when I arrived at the stoplight by the Walmart I stopped, and let those people take their left turns. My light turned green, so I began to follow traffic laws and proceeded into the intersection. Little did I know, that there was a guy in a Jeep that really really couldn't wait to turn left. So, he ran through his red light at about 30 mph right as I was in the middle of the intersection. I didn't see him; his headlights were off. So, when I heard the sound of screeching tired, I naturally looked around. To my surprise, this Jeep had arrived a foot and a half away from my driver's side door. Literally. Now, I slammed on my breaks to try to avoid any sort of collision (almost got rear-ended, but didn't, thankfully) and the guy sped off into the distance.
After I had safely made it through the intersection, I pulled off to the side and put my hazard lights on. Thankfully, the person directly behind me had also pulled over to make sure that I was okay. He was nice, asked me if I needed to call anyone, or if I needed anything at all. I politely declined those offers, but graciously took his hug and sobbed into his shoulder for a good 5 minutes.
I know this is so stereotypical to say, but I saw my life flash before my eyes at the moment of my almost death. My life, in the span of 5 seconds or less. It was a lot to fit in, but somehow I saw so much. And, I'm so thankful to say that I was completely happy with my life until this moment. There's nothing I would do differently. I know I've made a lot of mistakes, but they've made me who I am today and I wouldn't change them. And I love that about myself. I can look at myself in the mirror and be proud of who I am and the things I've experienced.
I wouldn't give up who I am for anything.
Just think about that, the next time you wish you could go back in time to fix something. How could that change who you are? Even the little things can be life changing, and I appreciate everything I've been through. And tonight, I'm thanking the world that I'm still alive. Because I've got so much left to do in this life (:
